Over the summer I felt a pull of temptations that was at war with my heart. Things that maybe didn't cross my mind as sinful before. I battled an inner war and eventually just prayed for deliverance from these temptations. I received my deliverance. I am now praying for transformation. May God's desires become my desires by the good works of the Holy Spirit within me!
This has been such a significant step in my life. I have seen many convictions of change I need to make! At moments it seems overwhelming, but I need to just take it 1 small step at a time. God will the way!
My current steps are to just spend time with God and cast out those negative thoughts and speak blessings over my life, my families life, and those I know. This is no small feat. I am finding failure in my daily life, and days where the crabbies just take over. But I will never give up. I know God is working in me and through me. I will overcome a negative attitude and I will be a person of light. Where light can shine through. I have to repeat convictions over myself constantly and cast out ugly thoughts. By simply replacing with Godly thoughts. I figured this out when Bryn would tell me her Bryn kept thinking naughty things, or scary things. I taught her to replace them with Godly things and we would think of loving wonderful things. Light bulb moment!
Insert crappy thought ..... In Jesus name I am loving, caring, gentle, beautiful, inspirational, a blessing unto others, an amazing teacher. Or whatever conviction needs to be made. I feel the shift with in myself and God work through me. This will become habbit and I will be transformed into the woman that God wants me to be. I have also had strong convictions to start truly studying his word and the scriptures! Get to know my Father in Heaven and my Savior Jesus Christ.
Through these moments of transformation and Trial I have had a dream emerge. I am not ready to quite share this dream, but I have spoken of it to my sister and my husband and how it plays into our dreams for our family and our core values. And have support of both which means the absolute world to me! It seems like a crazy impossible dream, but I know with God all things are possible. And the thing is, I think this dream has come from God! I believe this is his will in my life! There are moments of self doubt, but this fire with in me, and this passion and this transformation I feel can not be put out. My love for Jesus and my God grows and nothing can stop it. I want everyone to feel this way! I want everyone to feel the transformation of find God's path and the pure peace that lays there!
