Wednesday, May 30, 2018

My ideal day

I am still learning about building better habits to achieve more success in having ideal days.

I struggle with the lazies.... and feeling overwhelmed and HUGE to do lists getting the best of me.

I gave it some thought and built my ideal day of routines for best success.

I am not sure how I am going to achieve getting there, but I am going to start with PRAYER. I am going to read it every day and pray over my day and my days plan EVERY DAY.

This will be my new habit. We will see where it leads. I was hoping to do the miracle morning and have that inspire my plan for each day and fill my cup right away in the morning with God and motivation and peace ect. But I can't seem to get my butt out of bed. So I built a plan that I can achieve in 5 mins. PRAYER no matter what and glancing at my IDEAL work day schedule! God will have to lead the rest of the way. I will try to keep you updated on how this goes.

I can tell you I have learned few helpful nuggets in the past few years and that has been the establishment of ROUTINES. I am not perfect at following my own routines, because I am me and I am never 100% consistent, but following general routines and building in pick up times, set meal times, play times, out side times, time for dishes and me time. Knowing what I need to do and when for best success ect. This has really leveled me up from where I once was. I will go into more details on my built routines in future posts.

I am just needing to up my game a bit more to unload the stress on my shoulders a bit more and help me not fall behind in a few areas.

The current areas of target

Filling my cup with God in the morning.

Planning my day better

keeping up on accounting and food program

keeping up on bills and mail and receipt organization

keeping a cleaner bathroom

keeping up better on the laundry. Which admittedly I don't know how this will look quite yet, but it is on my mind!

I will keep you posted on how I grow in these areas, and I pray I will be able to be an inspiration to other mothers 1 day.

Building Health

So I often I think everything has to be all or nothing. Like last year when I went Keto and fell off the bandwagon. I restarted at least 7 times, but every time I would fall off the bandwagon I would just give everything up. This ended up with me living in a full health regression with old habits that took me YEARS to break back in full force. A lot of it was emotion related, and feeling like a complete failure. Then pregnancy happened.

Yesterday I was watching a you tube video from Dr. Berg and at the end of it he says make a list of habits you need to break and habits of health you have built. Keep the list of habits of health growing and keep the list of bad habits shrinking. Ok, not in those exact words, but you get the idea. This simple little sentence at the very end of his video completely struck a cord with me. I am apparently not very good at all or nothing. Just do what you can! So I made my list and made my goal of my first habit I would like to break. I think I may have to keep going in baby steps to get the best results.


Building Health 1 block at a time will equal a whole new me of health and wellness.

I have to remember that wellness is everything as a whole not just food. I have worked greatly on spiritual health and cutting stress and learning to be my own advocate. A lot of this comes with work balance and life balance. Who am I? What type of mother am I? I have had so much growth in the last 8 years its absolutely crazy! Why do I discount it because I am still fat?! That is just crazy talk!



Tuesday, May 15, 2018

Trying to be Super Mom

I have a desire to do it all. I want to be this holistic super mom fixing our families health holistically and with God in the lead, I dream of a beautiful women's ministry, I still have a passion for my job as a daycare provider, yet I dream of living sustainably on a farm and gardening and homeschooling and running a women's a ministry, but when reality sinks in I just want to be caught up on laundry and complete my to do lists, and wake up early to read the bible and pray over my day. I can't seem to do any of those realistic things. How on earth will the rest come into play? Yet wanting a caught up to do list and caught up laundry and home to do projects... is that even reality? or is it always messy? I'm just getting by day to day doing the best I can... which is honestly NOT good enough. I am living day to day in stress and feeling overwhelmed. I need to get better order. I am type A.... I am not meant to live in such disarray! I make improvements year by year of course, and things are really coming along, but at the age of 34 I am a bit disappointed in my self. I am disappointed with the clutter in my home. I am disappointed with all the unchecked items on my to do list. I am disappointed in our money management skills. I am disappointed in my wellness journey and my lack of self discipline. I am disappointed in my scripture reading (not doing it enough) and bible studying. I am disappointed  in myself with the upkeep of laundry and dishes and accounting and paperwork and mail order and organization and yard work. I want to yell at my husband for not helping more, but I am feeling that I need to stop relying on other people to do the work I wont do myself. If I want it done its my own job, and wow will that be amazing if I can accomplish these things myself.

I am praying over these things and just going to give it to God and take it 1 step at a time. My first step in this messy life is just prayer and scripture reading and learning to fully rely on God. My God lead me blindly. Take my anxiety of all that I want to change and lead the way! All these things are just earthly wishes. Only my relationship with you and my ministry is all that matter. I do do believe these trials and struggles are part of my ministry. Or at least will be. This is my journey and I must learn.

I am learning currently I am relying on everyone to rescue me in 1 way or another. I don't do things fully for myself. I would like to change this! God has given me a gift to plan. I need to utilize this gift!

I have been really prompted to journal and to blog this Journey. I believe the 2 of these things are important to my ministry in some way.

I really don't even know where it will all lead... but here we go... trying to give up the anxiety and the desires and just follow where the Holy Spirit leads me.

John 16:13
When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all the truth, for he will not speak on his own authority, but whatever he hears he will speak, and he will declare to you the things that are to come.

John 14:26
But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you.