Letrozole cycle #1 outcome

My first cycle on letrozole (since Bryn) was so exciting. I was beyond excited! I shared all the details of my OPKs with my moms group and I got my first positive OPK ever! I ovulated sooner than expected just 4 days after my period ended so that was a bit of a surprise and we didn't have as much sex as we were anticipating. My BBT spiked on the same day that I got my positive OPK so that was confusing as well.

I took over 10 pregnancy tests and I swore I saw a shadow of a line on a few. But inevitably there was no line and they were all negative. There was a couple days I swore I was pregnant. But according to my fertility friend I am on cycle day 28 today and 14dpo and due for a period. And I am still getting negative pregnancy tests.

So yesterday I had a few ugly cries and break down moment. But I keep my trust in God. I know his plan is perfect. I know when he says its time it will be the right time. I will remain faithful and patient!

Speaking life and blessings in daily convictions

I am reading Hung By The Tongue by Francis P. Martin. I love this book!!! I cannot recommend it enough. I will do an overview eventually. But it really is starting to transform the way I speak and think and definitely teaching me to hold my tongue!! At the same time I ran across a short video clip of Joyce Meyers talking about how her and her husband write convictions over their life. For what we speak will become our truth in Jesus name. We just need to have faith.

Matthew 17:20 Jesus says Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say tho this mountain move from here to there and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.

So I have prayed and made a list of convictions over my life today.

Because I have faith that God will transform me to be the Godly woman he desires for me to be despite my short comings!

I also know God will move my mountain of infertility and I will have more children.

I also wanted to share with all of you speak life and blessings with your words. Do not curse with negativity.

I hope this is an inspiration for anyone that may read this. It speaks to my soul personally as I find myself often complaining of my weaknesses and not speaking good over all of it. I also want to do this with those around me. I want to bless everyone with my words. I want people to be lifted up and blessed because of it. I hope this will be a way the Lord will transform me.

Because I'm cray cray

So I'm trying for baby and had a really bad few months previous and had gained weight.... and I feel it in my soul that God is going to bless me with a baby.... and to be completely CRAY CRAY I decided to restart keto 3 days ago.... I'm doing great with it too! LOL I don't know how that will play out with pregnancy and so forth... But hey..... I'm gonna role with it! If I can maintain keto through pregnancy it would be great for weight and baby's development and to protect against GD. I really am not placing any expectations on myself I am just going to pray and role with where I feel God leads.

Letrozole Cyle #1

On November 1st I got my period. I had my moms group ladies praying for me! I was spotting and just hoping to restart my cycle so I could take my Letrozole Cycle days 3-7. My period ended CD 10 and I got busy with OPK testing and practicing the baby dance ;) It was immediately clear my leutenizing hormone was growing and I got my positive OPK on CD day 14!!!!! CD 15 (today) I had a temp spike and a drop in LH. I'm sooo excited! I can't believe how flawlessly this cycle has gone. This is not my first rodeo and its never been like this before there's usually failed cycles or really late ovulation. But this has been absolutely flawless since my OB appointment. I have had all of church praying for me. And family and friends and my moms group. I have been trying with all my might to follow that small still voice and listen to God's will. and you guys...... I think I ovulated. I have to be honest... I am full on expecting to get my answered prayer and to be expecting our Baby Randall #2 in August. I am not ignorant and I do realize most people don't get pregnant on the first round. But I have faith and God is bigger than any mountain. He will bless us! This I just KNOW! My blessing may look differently than I expect and God certainly does things on his own timing and it is always proven to be perfect, but I have absolute FAITH and this brings so much peace and joy and excitement. The nerves and stress just aren't there. They come knocking on my door occasionally, but I know God has it. Take delight in the lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalms 37:4

Infertilty Treatment Plans

I am soooo excited to announce the start of our infertility treatments!!!!! Cycle day #1 of first treatment cycle was November 1st! Which if this cycle is successful it will put my due date at August 8th! I am praying for that of course.

How did we get here?

In August of 2015 I went to see a fertility specialist and we were starting an extensive plan of first full diagnostics and then treatment. I ended up getting diagnosed with a cholesteatoma tumor in my ear and had my first very big surgery November 2017. At that point I was bound and determined to holistically reverse the effects of PCOS and started a program with a holistic nutritionist called sexy lady balls. That program Taught me a TON and I lost about 10 pounds and kept some life long changes and really started taking a lot of supplements. I started cycling again! I went from 70+ day cycles to about 35 day cycles! This was sooo encouraging but I just couldn't beat my food addictions or ovulate! But alas I November 2016 I needed another surgery. After that I was trying yet another attempt at weight loss and wellness goals. I tried the standard dietician approach with whole foods. I lost another 5 lbs that I credit to food tracking on my fitness pal. Overall that made my insulin resistance worse and I didn't notice any wellness benefits. April of 2017 I tried the Keto diet and lost 30 lbs!!!!! I felt AMAZING I thought this is it here comes baby!!! But my cycles went wonky on me!! Then I got ECOLI at the end of June 2017 and my diet went out the window! See my previous posts about that. I've gained back about 20 lbs of the 30 I lost. And I threw in the towel on the holistic approach which I whole heartedly believe in, but failing yet again and turning 34 I just gave up. I prayed lots and researched a doctor to see that would appease my fertility plan that I did with Bryn with out going to the specialist extensive route.

AND HERE WE ARE I am soooooo excited!!!! I felt so strongly about going about this holistically and it felt God lead. But now my plans also feel God lead. I don't know the why to all the turns ups and downs and changes in my journey, but I trust God and I trust the process. Its all for a reason and I will keep my faith in it.

My Plan -

Letrozole! also known as femara. I am taking 2.5mgs for 3 months and if that doesn't work or I am not ovulating they will up my dose to 5mgs for 3 months. For monitoring I am going to BBT chart and take OPKs. This is exactly how I conceived Bryn. With Bryn it took 6 cycles and a few of those cycles failed all together. So I am nervous but incredibly OPTIMISTIC. I feel it in my bones that I will become pregnant. But I know God doesn't always have timing the way I like it so I am trying to remember to remain patient and faithful in his perfect timing.

Prayers Prayers Prayers needed!!!

Stress and Emotions August-October = health and wellness set backs

If you are following my wellness blog you will know I failed once again. I gained most back of what I lost following a Keto diet. I also went through some major mental trials August - October. I really sort of fell into worldly thoughts and temptations and fell away from God a bit, at the same time, I knew it was happening while it was happening and was calling out to him for deliverance and help. I am proud to say I am on the mend but still struggling with some internal emotions from the ordeal. I am not going to go into detail on my blog as its REALLY personal (even if I only  have 1 follower that knows everything about me).

What is super hard right now is my binge eating and Halloween candy is KILLING me! I will never give up on my health and wellness and I will continue to try EVERY SINGLE DAY albeit right now I fail by noon every single day. But with God leading me I will prevail one day. And my journey is long and hard and I suspect life long, but I will be a good steward to my body one day.

In fact I teach a preschool on Wednesday nights at church  for faith and family night. All ages have classes available and we have dinner first. Its super cool. Anyways.... October theme was Stewardship. Teaching the kids I really became inspired and realized some hard truths on how I am not a great steward to all the gifts God has given me. Especially to my body. I for sure struggle with food addiction. And my obesity is sort of an eating disorder. I am looking to God to take me through this.

SO my Goals for November are to simply be a better steward to my body and prepare for pregnancy!

Yep you heard that right PREGNANCY (see my next post)..... INFERTILITY treatments have officially started!!!!! woot woot!!!!