This month I have really taken a step back and looked at myself after starting out the month with gusto and then falling again! I'm still reading and absorbing the book Made to Crave by Lysa Terkeurst. Its been a great book and really teaching me how to go to God with my issues. I've also really done a lot better with personal devotions and listening to some Preacher podcasts and videos and such, and spiritually February has been a month of growth! I'm really trying to listen to God and let him guide my health journey. I had another fertility doctor appointment to go to, and I was on the fence about going. I am soo close to ovulating on my own... sooo close! I have acquired soooo much holistic knowledge and guidance with gut health, and hormone health and how to heal my PCOS. Its just a matter of consistency at this point. And I see so much progress and so much happening! God is the glue I am needing to really fill in those gaps. He is my strength when I am weak. And I am not calling him. I am not relying on him. I spend way more time stressed and worried than I do in prayer. I am working on this. And I am seeing things come together. So when the doc canceled her appointment with me I chose to take it as my sign and just have faith God is working on me and pregnancy will come in his perfect timing. He is leading down a holistic journey and its for a reason. I am just going to have faith and be obedient in his calling.
I have stopped counting and restricting.... you heard me right.... I like the goals I have set for myself but I stopped obsessively counting. I am more or less logging to check in with myself on occasion to see how close I am getting to my goals. I know the foods I want to be eating and the foods I don't want to be eating. I am just doing the best I can. And calling on God's strength when I am struggling. I have actually been more consistent and successful than I ever have. I'm not doing the best I ever have. Because when I'm perfect that leads to lulls where I fall off the perfect wagon and those falls mean old habbits come flooding in. I'm just trying my best and accepting I'm not perfect. And I really don't want to eat gluten because I know what gluten does to my body and my insulin. And because its not a restriction rule that makes or breaks me I am choosing to not eat gluten because I just don't want it in my body. NOT because I CANT. Because I can if that is what I think I need at the moment.
Make sense?
Its a shift in mind frame I guess. I think its much healthier. Its also much slower results. But ever lasting changes of habits and thoughts and ways of doing things. Dani Spies (from Clean and Delicious) has really inspired this teaching that I am feeling from with in now.
As mentioned above Bryn has inspired lots of things this month. And in a nutshell we got some allergy/intolerance results this month that is life changing for her! And its really pushed me to make the changes I have already been called to make a long time ago. We needed this push and kick in the pants. We knew already its the path we were meant to be on, but to have blood test results to prove we need to cut this shit from our lives is a kick in the pants! NO GLUTEN OR DAIRY (casein) or eggs!!! Her egg intolerance tested mild. SO we have a little flexibility there, but we are going to try to cut these things from our diet 100% I shouldn't have them either with my PCOS (except eggs. they are a protein staple for me)
We made Bryn a special treat Paleo Chocolate muffins (before we knew about the egg intolerance) But no gluten no diary. Next time we will have to try a vegan GF chocolate muffin.
Here is a picture of my plate tonight. Forgive the yellow lighting. I roasted some beets and made some balsamic glazed salmon and put them on top of the sautéed beet greens. It was delicious. For my hubby and daughter, who hate veggies, I also made some vegan risotto. Whole foods for life! I am loving it! And it feels good to feed my family!
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