Words

Today as I was the feeling the heavy weight of stress and a screaming baby and the pressure of household chores and work..... I lost my good attitude. I ended putting in a show for my 2 big kids and put the 2 babies down for nap (all the kids I had today) and listened to a sermon in the background while I cleaned up the kitchen from the disaster of our morning.

our words speak life or death

God will only grant us what our faith allows. our future is in our own hands, and our words will profess our faith and display our hearts.

our words will bring life or death

our words manifest

our words can kill our faith or feed or faith.

The words I say around and to these kids I am blessed enough to care for directly impact them and will and can manifest their future.

you are so kind

you are so strong

you are so capable

you are so happy

I realize the same goes for my kids of course but also my HUSBAND what he hears me say and the attitude I have will effect him and his attitude and his actions and can make or break his faith.

My daily attitude and words do not always profess great faith or manifest great things

My faith holds me back by what I believe is able and capable. All things are possible with God.

It is through our trials that we grow. IT is trly thought our weaknesses that His strength shines. I am grateful for my trials. I am grateful for my struggles.

It will be unless God specifically wills it not to be and I trust in him and can leave my anxiety behind.

I feel God is working on something GREAT within me. I am so grateful.

there have been things that I feel God is not answering and I have been praying for years about. Today I realized it was because I wasn't listening to him in other areas in my life and His timeline for my life is what I want to follow. I will put aside what I am anxious to begin conquering and conquer what God calls of me first.

And today I realize my words and my attitude are DEFINITELY part of HIS plan!

Social Media Detox week 2

I'm probably going to disappoint you here. But after day 2 I downloaded an app called app detox.

I allow myself 30 mins on facebook. It unfortunately glitches quite often and allows me more time before kicking me off. I also will log onto my computer to check something that I want to check if I am out of time.

I do feel like a have a million times more healthy relationship with Facebook so I am quite happy with these parameters.

I have not limited myself to Instagram as I don't feel like it has a negative aspect in my life.

I have to remind myself that God wants me to get off my phone! Get off  Facebook in particular.

I do think I have gone back to a comfort zone of sorts. A new comfort zone, but I am still not reading the bible as much as I would like. I am not listening to sermons as much as I would like. I am not praying as intently as I wish.

I need to be a bit more purposeful in those areas.

Over all I am happy with pulling away the way I have. But I need now to refocus my attention not on other forms of entertainment, but to align my focus with God.

I am still a work in progress!

Social Media detox day 2

When God leads your path its surprisingly easy. I have tried on my own will so many times to detox from social media, and I was always unsuccessful.

I have very weak will power. However, it seems when God calls me to give something up it is surprisingly easy. Not to say it is without temptation or hardship, but just a new frame of mind that comes from within. God's strength. God's will. ITS JUST DIFFERENT.

Here's what I have noticed in just this day and a half.

• When I am looking to relax I automatically want to go on social media.
• There were a few things I legitimately wanted to check see and do.  I am trying to sit with these areas and pray over my boundaries with social media. I am still unsure on where this will leave me. 
• When I am waiting or on autopilot mindlessness I grab my phone and look for the Facebook app.
• I found I was 200% more tuned into the kids! I was able to just be PRESENT with holding my son instead of holding him and trying to look at my phone. I also did something that was harder with the daycare kids because it required more careful supervision, but when my mind wasn't split so many ways I was able to easily and not stressfully give this focus on supervision versus when my mind was split so many ways, I would set the kids up in very predicable boring environments so supervision was easier. I took them out of the house because I wasn't so preoccupied. I sat with my daughter outside so she could bike and play with her friend in the front yard (her favorite).
• I was more intentional with my free time. I did things like listen to sermons and watch a show I wanted to watch without split concentration. I blogged.
• We ate dinner as a family.
• I had more time to fit in the tasks I wanted to accomplish!
• My mind was much more free to think of healthier things. Prayers, intentions, goals, aspirations, and be free to hear that small still voice! 
• I was able to drink my coffee and read you version plans instead of scroll my notifications.
• I used my planner more.

 To sum it up my mind had so much less going through it and I found so much more time.

In this extra time I have been lead to work on my attitude and words. I feel lit on fire with the holy spirit. There is nothing more satisfying than listening to God's will. He is always right. Even when his plan is not what you had in mind.

Social Media Detox

Wake up check facebook while coffee brews
drink coffee scroll facebook
scroll facebook off and on as daycare kids come in and play
scroll social media off and on while daycare kids eat breakfast
scroll social media off and on while daycare kids play and the babies nap
scroll social media off and on while I am outside with the kids
scroll facebook  while kids eat lunch on occasion if I do not eat
scroll social media through all of the kids naps
check social media off and on while waiting for kids to be picked up
scroll social media immediately after kids leave
check social media and on during family time in evenings
sit on social media for hours after kids go to bed

Facebook is my main source of addiction. I do go on Instagram and snap chat. Those are much more brief and rarely bring any drama or anxiety and often can motivate me. But I can over do it there too.

All of the political debates and vaccine debates and the extreme hate an division amongst the people have really been a source of anxiety for me. Yet I can't leave it alone. It has even caused me insomnia.

I have realized all of these things are the ways of the world. My trust and faith need to remain in my God. I need to step away. I need to live the life God has called me to and to stop worrying about these ways of the world. I don't want to be completely ignorant and not pray over these things. But I do not need to obsess. God has called me to be a GREAT WOMAN OF GOD and I need to build my husband and my children up. I need keep my home. I need to build up my daycare. The career God has personally blessed with me to stay home with my kids and provide for my family all the while fueling a passion for early childhood development.

These things got lost amidst the chaos of the mind with 3oo things and stories and people and comparisons running through it. Time evades me as I scroll every spare minute of peace I have. What would happen if I collected and saved those moments of peace? Would I be able spread more peace? Would I have more patience? Would I better be able to keep up on the constant flow of house work? Would I take my free minutes and chip away at the pile of work constantly piling? Would I more carefully build the foundation for my children? Would I project the Godly peace and grace and gentleness my family needs to?

God has called me to detox from the worldly source. I need to take a step back. I am praying over the parameters of what the future will hold concerning social media.

Here I wanted to document my journey and discover what potential lies within a mind more free.

2 weeks on ideal day follow up

Ok not perfect. In fact far from perfect! However; I am LOVING it! Starting off my day with God instead of coffee and Facebook has been HUGE! It really fills my cup for the day, and my Instagram is getting some Randi's World inspiration ;) I really think I am a better person from it! If I am really good about staying off Facebook all together I tend to get so much more done! Giving myself a time limit with dedicated time to be preschool/daycare focused has been really great too! I feel like a better provider! I've been so much more efficient in planning and following my plans.

My down fall is laziness. I totally skip things to just sit and watch kids play, or skip something to lay in bed and watch youtube, or skip something and pull up facebook on my browser. So I'd say I am about 75% which is way better than I was! So I am really not mad! 

As far as food program and accounting and paperwork. I am way better, but I still seem to have a mental block about sitting down and getting things done. I have been slowly ticking away at some things. I am achieving some goals though. Mostly thanks to planning out some dedicated work time while my sister watches kids! I need to get better at utilizing the kids nap time! 

Having laundry as a goal has helped me keep up much better than I have in YEARS! There is still no system in place that I can brag about but the thought is the first step. It reminds me to atleast keep it going.

My bathroom is about the same as always. I will one day have an incredible bathroom and laundry system to totally brag about!

I did have a financial meltdown and God has opened my eyes to some major problem areas. Budgeting Randi's World is about to commence! Frugality here I come! I am inspired! Dave Ramsey is showing me the way! First step is halting spending and saving for my maternity leave! When I get back spending will still be halted and an emergency fund will start! Then we will get on those credit cards. So major major budgeting and cutting back is happening. The first thing I really needed to do is truly cut spending and look at a system to budget. I wasn't really budgeting properly! No wonder I wasn't getting ahead! Thanks to you  tube I have found the light. There is a You Tube channel that has really been an answer to my prayers! I feel like she just changed my life. She is s fellow Minnesota Daycare Provider. Work Life Glue is her channel. Check it out!

I am so motivated. Where I am weak he is strong, and I am grateful for my weakness to let God work through me! The Grace of my God through Jesus is miraculous !

My ideal day

I am still learning about building better habits to achieve more success in having ideal days.

I struggle with the lazies.... and feeling overwhelmed and HUGE to do lists getting the best of me.

I gave it some thought and built my ideal day of routines for best success.

I am not sure how I am going to achieve getting there, but I am going to start with PRAYER. I am going to read it every day and pray over my day and my days plan EVERY DAY.

This will be my new habit. We will see where it leads. I was hoping to do the miracle morning and have that inspire my plan for each day and fill my cup right away in the morning with God and motivation and peace ect. But I can't seem to get my butt out of bed. So I built a plan that I can achieve in 5 mins. PRAYER no matter what and glancing at my IDEAL work day schedule! God will have to lead the rest of the way. I will try to keep you updated on how this goes.

I can tell you I have learned few helpful nuggets in the past few years and that has been the establishment of ROUTINES. I am not perfect at following my own routines, because I am me and I am never 100% consistent, but following general routines and building in pick up times, set meal times, play times, out side times, time for dishes and me time. Knowing what I need to do and when for best success ect. This has really leveled me up from where I once was. I will go into more details on my built routines in future posts.

I am just needing to up my game a bit more to unload the stress on my shoulders a bit more and help me not fall behind in a few areas.

The current areas of target

Filling my cup with God in the morning.

Planning my day better

keeping up on accounting and food program

keeping up on bills and mail and receipt organization

keeping a cleaner bathroom

keeping up better on the laundry. Which admittedly I don't know how this will look quite yet, but it is on my mind!

I will keep you posted on how I grow in these areas, and I pray I will be able to be an inspiration to other mothers 1 day.

Building Health

So I often I think everything has to be all or nothing. Like last year when I went Keto and fell off the bandwagon. I restarted at least 7 times, but every time I would fall off the bandwagon I would just give everything up. This ended up with me living in a full health regression with old habits that took me YEARS to break back in full force. A lot of it was emotion related, and feeling like a complete failure. Then pregnancy happened.

Yesterday I was watching a you tube video from Dr. Berg and at the end of it he says make a list of habits you need to break and habits of health you have built. Keep the list of habits of health growing and keep the list of bad habits shrinking. Ok, not in those exact words, but you get the idea. This simple little sentence at the very end of his video completely struck a cord with me. I am apparently not very good at all or nothing. Just do what you can! So I made my list and made my goal of my first habit I would like to break. I think I may have to keep going in baby steps to get the best results.


Building Health 1 block at a time will equal a whole new me of health and wellness.

I have to remember that wellness is everything as a whole not just food. I have worked greatly on spiritual health and cutting stress and learning to be my own advocate. A lot of this comes with work balance and life balance. Who am I? What type of mother am I? I have had so much growth in the last 8 years its absolutely crazy! Why do I discount it because I am still fat?! That is just crazy talk!